sourgurl77's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- me. Yes yet another update. I did it. I emailed fireman and said we'd never have a committment. That we could be "friends" in a sense fuck friends? I said I wanted him to know so I wasn't leading him on. I said a relationship was unrealistic with no communication, seeing him every four months. The real reason: I feel nothing for the man. I feel everything for work guy and doing this, makes me feel truthful to him and to myself. I want to change for him. Now, there is nothing, nothing to stop us, or worry my heart. No secrets. Should'nt I feel something about this? I don't feel guilty, I feel slightly relieved. Yet scared to his reply. I did it for work guy and myself. Now watch him dump me. 6:26 p.m. - 2005-11-01 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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